Jo's 2009 Resolutions

It's already January 20, 2009! I watched the Inauguration this morning from my work desk and was so happy to see a change in our nation. With all this talk about hope and change and accomplishments to be obtained this year, it made me wonder, what am I going to do with myself - physically and mentally?

I told my Momma yesterday that I had some sort of nervous breakdown at the Sharks signing the other day (which you will see a post of soon). She asked what happened. I replied that I started to get real hot, started to tremble a little and even got a bit dizzy and light-headed. It could have been my nerves since I was about to meet the hottest players in the #1 team in the NHL, but Momma thought otherwise. I proceeded to tell her that I only felt better after I had lemonade and a little pastry.

She then suggested that I could be diabetic.

HOLY CRAP.

I'm only 24! =( That one sentence made my world spin around me. I went ahead and did some research on early symptoms and I had some of them. I just didn't know why I was feeling the symptoms or I just thought they were associated with other maladies I had.

My tingling fingers and knees - I went to a neurologist January of 2008 and she told me that the tingling and numbness came from a migraine. I also blacked out in one eye from that episode. I had a requisition for an MRI and she said I didn't need to have it. She gave me an rx for Imitrex and that was that. Now I read that it could be diabetic neuropathy. Yikes.

My blurred vision - I thought that the blurred vision came from my bad eyes. I have astgmatism in my left eye and I had just started to wear contacts in June. Things are pretty good, but I do have occassions when I have to squint, especially if I am outside at night.

Dizziness and trembling - There was this other time when I was walking up Fillmore Street back to my office with my lunch and I started to get real hot. I sat myself down at my desk and I started to feel real anxious - same way I felt at the Sharks signing. *sigh* I felt better afer I ate. I knew that my blood sugar was low because I started to feel real weak. I even asked Ate at the signing, "Do you know that song, 'Weak' by SWV?" She replies yes. I say, "That's how I feel right now."

SOoOoOoOoOoOo, I don't know. Maybe I should go back to the doctor and get more tests done. I really hope it isn't anything serious.

Because this was somewhat of a rude awakening, I have decided to make a resolution list for 2009. Let's see if I actually follow it:

1. No more big steaks - goodbye fliet mignon and ribeyes
2. No more cheeseburgers. Period!
3. Every Wednesday will be "vegetarian Wednesday"
4. Eat more vegetables and whole grains
5. At a fast food joint, get the chicken or salad - no beef
6. Limit fried food in-take. <--- so hard
7. No more sodas either. Orange soda I shall miss thee.
8. Take multi-vitamins daily
9. Eat smaller meals instead of binging
10. No more candy - eat dried fruit instead.

*sigh* Let's see how this works out. Some of the stuff I put on my list are common habits for many of you out there, but this is hard for me because I was never raised to eat whole grains and vegetables. So this will be a change, and I think I will need every ounce of will power I have in my (deteriorating) body to make it through the year living under those rules.

Geez, I am also terrified of going to the doctor. Not really afraid of the doctor themselves, but of the possiblity that something wrong is really happening to me. Ignorance is bliss...but it can also hurt you later on...

I just need to be strong and abide by my rules.

It's for my own good though, right?